I had my D&C five weeks ago, and things have not resolved themselves. Emotionally, I am better. I have made a sort of peace with the fact that I lost my twins. The fact that they died at the same time makes me believe that there was something genetically wrong with both of them, and they were not meant to live outside of me.
Physically, I am annoyed beyond reason. In the past five weeks, I have had 12 days of no bleeding. That makes 23 days of bleeding. The past 9 days have been light, much the way it is when you are at the end of your period. the end of my period typically does not take 9 days. And usually proceeds a good 3 weeks of NON bleeding. Not just 12 days. Annoying, though, is the fact that my doctor is concerned about infection and keep testing and swabbing to find the cause of this. So far, nothing. Everything is negative. I am glad that he is concerned, but I have had enough stuff shoved up my bajingo in the past month to last me a while.
I just want things to be back to normal so that we can try again (shoving something else up my bajingo, but somewhat more pleasant than a speculum and extra-long Q-tip). I really wanted to have a baby in 2010, but if things keep up the way they have…well, that won’t be happening.